Prayers Felt...

Woke up at 5:30 this morning to get ready for the procedure. I actually dealt with it pretty well this morning. I woke up with such peace and comfort - I couldn't even shed a tear. I knew right then that God had His arms wrapped around me extra tight.. Once we got to the hospital reality really set in, and hit hard. I wanted to wake up and have everything be a dream. Unfortunately, it wasn't that way.
Rick and I had some time together before the procedure - it's definitely been tough for both of us, and will continue to be in the weeks and months ahead.
After surgery we had talked to the doctor and he suggested we not see the baby. He had said that the baby measured 13 weeks and had shrunk and just thought maybe it was best they printed me a few extra ultrasound pictures, and I was okay with that.
I am doing well now, home and feeling pretty good. Things hit me again every now and then but I just feel this peace over me, that everything is going to be okay. I feel that a lot of that comes from all of your love and prayers. We appreciate each and every one.
Yesterday I had decided to go into work - it helped get my mind off of things before the procedure today, and I could talk about it to people. It felt good to cry. A dear co-worker of mine, Doris, wanted to make an outfit for the baby...When I received it, I couldn't believe how tiny the hats were - how can a baby be that small? It's just so hard to understand...Deep down it hurt that the doctor said it was best we didn't see the baby, but I understood. The outfit she made for me is something I will keep to remember our little one....When test results come back in a few weeks and we find out if it was a boy or a girl, we will pick a name. I can't wait to meet our little one in Heaven some day!
Thank you all for your prayers...There is no way we would make it through this without your love and support. I especially want to thank Rick, who has stayed strong to focus on me and be by my side, and wipe my tears or lend his shoulder for me to cry on. Now, time for me to take a few deep breaths and rest.